Sophie's Weight Loss Challenge

I finished the Warrior Dash today.

What do you say after a test of your will? It was only a test for your eyes only and keeping it private and close is just like all the hard work you did to prepare and all along the race. You are alone. It's just yours. I had to do it. I did. No one could help me. I didn't need it.

There is something to be said about finishing last because it's still finishing. There is pride in that. Thank goodness I was among other tired warriors at the end and it wasn't much like a green mile. It was a final last push that you can always find the energy to do. You think you will die walking up those hills. You think you will fall down you are so tired. But you don't. You can't fail. You always find the silver lining in a battle. You learn to revel in the bruises and aches as the runner's high rushes through your mind.

Thinking of absolutely nothing has never been so easy. (That is until the kid who talked and talked and talked interrupted my groove until I told him to be quiet). But you feel the worries about feet and aches and pains and normal worries dissipate. I thought about nothing except- "Fuck these hills never end.... fuck these hills are killer... fuck ANOTHER hill?"

Hahaha but hearing my family at the end, when I could see the end myself- that was a real moment. I nearly cried. But then I sucked in my breath. I ran to the fire and leaped over it. I know it doesn't look nearly as grand in real life as it does in my head, but that's not what matters. What's in my head is what matters. I'm much much stronger. And it was more mental than anything. My goals were to finish the whole thing and all obstacles in under 1.5 hours. Boy do I surprise myself when not only do I finish no questions asked, I do it in an hour!

I look better, feel stronger, and the confidence is move unwavering.