Sophie's Weight Loss Challenge

I'm losing steam- not because I'm not seeing results. I am. I can tell my metabolism is BOOSTED.

But I hear myself say things like,
"How the heck am I still losing weight?" "I don't know why but the lbs keep coming off."

These thoughts mean: I'm doing nothing and I logically always gain when I do nothing. I am 1) being too critical 2) too lazy. It's a paradox. I work out, but the mindset is... it's not enough. But then I see results. What the heck is wrong with my head?!

Back to motivation. Ok. Here's the deal. I have a plan. I can't share it though. I think that jinxes it. But I will include here what I'm doing that's radically different and for the better:

1. No scale in my house until the (undisclosed amount of time has ended)
2. Measurements only before and after
3. Forget about managing food. I'm a well oiled machine now. I just have some "don'ts" that are more like "avoids" that are a little flexible: pork/red and/or fatty meat, caffeine, liquid dairy, finally SUGAR.
4. Active (walking/cleaning/etc) does NOT replace a muscle/cardio exercise. Supplement and complement. The more you walk the less you need to supplement, but to go above and beyond means discipline.
   
5. Low energy? Too bad but there are several low energy options and no excuses.
6. Finally- quit counting good food, bad food, calories, lbs, measurements, glasses of water, and days worked out/missed.
7. You may only count days you went above and beyond and trade them for rewards and cheats (every other can be food).

If you can tell I HATE counting. I hate reciting what I did or did not do right. It's hurting the ol' self esteem machine. And after writing this and in my diary, I will have clear rules that I have to follow. There is no reason not to follow them. I am fail proof. I will not fail if I try. I cannot stay comfortable and be happy- that needs to stay a reality for me. Getting healthier is getting happier and more comfortable.

There are two different kinds of comfortable. The kind where you don't sweat through every shirt and you aren't winded from two stairs cases. There is the kind of comfortable where yes is the answer to every and anything, even though you aren't happier or healthier for it. Comfortable does not equal complacent or physical distortia. I was comfortable and happy, but I need to realize that being healthier means being happier. I need all three.

I can't have anyone demean me and I can't threaten myself into action. I have to have a positive push: Me + exercise + daily activity= comfortable, healthy, and happy

AND I shouldn't settle for less than ALL three. And this is the biggest lesson:
All that discipline I thought I needed was really only to get started. Once it is a lifestyle, a routine, a common activity it is essential and it is like breathing. You make it essential. Discipline for the first 10 times and practice for the rest to make it essential.

Ok I'm superstitious so I won't say what my plan is... I don't want to jinx myself. But I will say that I'm re-energized to be very positive. I will post my results (in an undisclosed time) for all to see what some positive rewards and actions can do for the physical body.